About This

It has occurred to me that I tend to post sarcastic, whiny, and negative things. This is intentional.

I use this blog as a way to vent about things, question truths I’ve realized, and make other sordid commentaries about this and that. It’s not a major deal. I’m not trying to be a real news anchor or a famous blogger. It’s more of a journal.

An old version of my personal website had a section called “theories” where I posted all sorts of theories about the world, people, etc. After recently going back to look through some of that old material, I’ve realized a few things:

  1. I don’t follow the scientific method very well
  2. I often state things just to state them
  3. Almost all of my complaints and complaint-like observations are things I’ve already personally dealt with, yet I post them anyway
  4. I come out in print a lot angrier than I actually feel
  5. Most of the time I spend constructing supporting points for an argument falls apart when I get to my last two paragraphs and decide I “just want to wrap it up,” and the quality of the piece always suffers because of this
  6. I still write the same way

So, what I’m trying to say is, while there are pieces on this blog that will sometimes seem overwhelmingly self-deprecating — even to a fault — that typically does not carry with it the truth that I feel how I’ve chosen to express myself.

It’s my nature to over-think most things. I over-think how I feel, how others feel, what other people think, the reason someone A may have done something B, and more. I also tend to approach most situations from a point of pessimism and/or cynicism. I’m working on reducing the amount I do both of these things, and by venting in a public blog, I am able to put thoughts I’ve already worked out — which often are neurotic, over-calculating, and pessimistic as a result of my nature — into a space that lets me deal with them. Once it’s been typed and is in some form available to the world, it’s relaxing to me. I don’t know why that’s true — I’m not a psychiatrist.

In short, unless the stuff on here gets really caustic or scary or weird, I probably have already dealt with the demons I’ve written about.

Thanks for the concern and the readership, though.